8th February 2012 – Jake – Today was just one of
those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard
somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the
one thing I don’t have..Ish’llah. The FORCE is too strong to ignore!
8th February 2012 – Neytiri – Wow. I really am
starting to go with the flow with housework, just stay in the present and think
of you. But you're right the force is too strong. Just make sure you're online
12.30 tomorrow. And you know you already have me.
8th February 2012 – Jake – Cause I love you and I
miss you, hearing your voice is the closest thing to touching you..Ish'llah
The force has been very
strong this week and I was discussing with Neytiri the feelings of the Force
and the difficulty I have explaining how it feels. I told her I feel truly blessed to have this
divine experience and asked her how and where she felt the Force. She also could not explain and said “Maybe it
is unexplainable!”
The force is not consistent
in its intensity and some days there is nothing. I cannot turn it off but can
turn it on by reading spiritual books and material. On certain days I can set my clock to it (in
sync with Neytiri) and I really believe it is our souls communicating with each
other. It is active as I write this post.
I told Neytiri I had a few
“aha” moments this past week. Firstly, I
was packing away some books that were lying on my desk and one fell out of the
pile; an AA book titled “Came to believe..”
I did not remember buying it but felt drawn to read it, especially after
it was “indicated”.
It is a book about
individuals’ (in AA) relating how and what experience they had that lead to a
spiritual awakening. This line sprang
out “How fortunate we alcoholics are to have a malady which compels us to seek
recovery through the spiritual.”
Wow; I’ve always told
Neytiri and anyone else who cares to listen the AA’s (and similar 12 step
programs) are the blessed one because they will have a spiritual awakening if
they follow the steps, an experience that probably 99.5% of the general
population will not have.
Secondly, I was reading
“Conversation with God” and in there he talks about the rhythm of life, the
vibration of energy. Birth and death are
part of this cycle and neither is good or bad but just is
.
“There is no right or wrong,
good or bad, it is thinking that makes it so!”
He states how can a death be
“bad” if it saves thousands and how can “birth” be good if it brings on untold
misery? He states we should not judge
events as we do not know what the soul’s intention is. What has the soul chosen to experience? If
someone has a disability or an ailment, it is because the soul has intended
this experience. We should not judge it.
Wow!
Previously Neytiri had told
me about the death of a mutual acquaintance and his wife in a car crash and
after reading the above I told her: “It is possible their souls wanted to
experience such a death and it would be one of the reasons they got married in
the first place”.
Everything happens for a
reason; there are no coincidences or “accidents” in life. Be Present and accept
what it. I told our souls are now ready to meet hence her visit in the near
future. I await the outcome. She was a bit impatient 23-24 years ago.
Thirdly, when we last spoke
I asked her about her food triggers and thought I re-read the sections on triggers
and addictions in “A New Earth” to help her. What I found was the answer to my
trigger when impatient!
She read from “The Power of
Now” and told me she opened it and it was just the right page. She was drawn to this statement about dying
to the past in the moment so there is nothing to carry forward. I recall it
also struck a chord with me. Also the
Force was extremely intense and I felt an amazing feeling of joy and peace,
whilst she was reading.
I told her to pick a page at
random and read it. Same message
again. So either she is living in the
past on some issues; I am or we both are.
The Big Sprig tells me she
watched the movie Julia, Julie (my inspiration for this blog). Bring on the butter, mon cherie!
She also tells me she has an
informal group of gym mums who take solace in their muffin tops; blaming
everyone and everything for their predicament, apart from the bitch in the
mirror. I’m sure Posh Becks would agree
that there are no muffin tops in nature.
But then I have not popped a kid, so who am I to judge? Sorry, please forgive
me.
She tells me the kids are on
break next week and Tsu’tey has taken some time off, so no Valentine’s Day call
for us. What we have does not require a
marketing gimmick to remind us of our love, but I will definitely miss the
call.
So my goal for the week
ahead is not to pine on what should be but celebrate what is!
On the physiological front,
the teenage feelings continue unabated, I’ve got a “headache”; my lips are
burning like crazy and my hearing is bionic.
9th February 2012 – Jake – R u offline?
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