September 11- Meditation from “Language of Letting Go”
One evening, I was sitting with my children around the dinner table. Shane was talking about his plans for the next day. Nichole was planning a pajama party. I was working on some project at that time. I was partly thinking about it but still enjoying listening to the children talk.
It was a friendly, relaxed supper. Later, I put the children to bed and quietly went to my room, peacefully getting ready to retire for the night.
That’s when it hit me. Like the proverbial bolt of lightening, it struck out of the blue.
I was so terrified when I had begun the journey of being a single parent. After ten years of being married, I was scared of little things like sleeping alone in bed at night and falling asleep without a man in the house.
Sometimes I went to bed with the phone in my hand, ready to dial 911. Everything about this new life as a single parent had overwhelmed me. I didn’t feel up to the task. But somewhere along the line, I had come to believe I could. I didn’t know when it had happened. It wasn’t an instant transformation. It had happened slowly, bit by bit.
“Woohoo!” I said, doing a victory dance in the room.
“I didn’t think I could do this. But I can and I am.”
Celebrate the miracle of transformation in your life—whatever you’re trying to become, do, or learn. Let it happen as quickly, or as slowly, as it needs.
Day by day, month by month, then year after year, the feeling of quiet confidence will slowly replace the overwhelming fear. That task or job that first seemed so overwhelming will begin to feel natural and right. You’ll gradually become so comfortable you may not even know when that miraculous transformation took place.
Enjoy where you are today in your process of growth.You might not see it or know it yet, but an ordinary miracle is taking place.
God, thank you for where I am in my learning curve and growth process today. Help me know that whether I see it or not, a miracle is taking place.
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