Sunday 7 December 2014

Oblivion (S)

Hazel Grace Lancaster: But, Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. I wouldn't trade it for the world. You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I'm grateful. 

Augustus Waters: [voice over, from his eulogy to Hazel] Mr. Van Houten. I'm a good person, but a shitty writer. You're a shitty person, but a good writer. I think we'd make a good team. I don't wanna ask you for any favors, but if you have the time - and from what I saw you had plenty - please fix this for me: It's a eulogy for Hazel. She asked me to write one, and I'm trying, but I just... I could use a little flair. See, the thing is... we all wanna be remembered. But Hazel's different. Hazel knows the truth. She didn't want a million admirers, she just wanted one. And she got it. Maybe she wasn't loved widely, but she was loved deeply. And isn't that more than most of us get? When Hazel was sick, I knew I was dying, but I didn't wanna say so. She was in the ICU when I snuck in for ten minutes and I just sat with her before I got caught. Her eyes were closed, her skin pale, but her hands were still her hands, still warm, and her nails were painted this dark blue black color, and... I just held them. And I willed myself to imagine a world without us and what a worthless world that would be. She's so beautiful. You don't get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she's smarter than you, 'cause you know she is. She's funny without ever being mean. I love her. God, I love her, I'm so lucky to love her, Van Houten. You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have a say in who hurts you. And I like my choices. I hope she likes hers. Okay, Hazel Grace?
Hazel Grace Lancaster: Okay.

Augustus Waters: What's your story?
Hazel Grace Lancaster: I was diagnosed when I was 13...
Augustus Waters: No no no, Your real story.
Hazel Grace Lancaster: I am quite unextraordinary.
Augustus Waters: I reject that.

Hazel Grace Lancaster: Hello. My name is Hazel Grace Lancaster. And Augustus Waters was the star-crossed love of my life. Ours is an epic love story and I probably won't be able to get more than a sentence out without disappearing into a puddle of tears. Like all real love stories, ours will die with us, as it should. You know, I'd kind of hoped that he'd be the one eulogizing me, because there is really no one else... Yeah, no, um... I'm not gonna talk about our love story, 'cause I can't. So instead I'm gonna talk about math. I'm not a mathematician, but I do know this: There are infinite numbers between zero and one. There's point one, point one two, point one one two, and an infinite collection of others. Of course, there is a bigger set of infinite numbers between zero and two or between zero and a million. Some infinities are simply bigger than other infinities. A writer that we used to like taught us that. You know, I want more numbers than I'm likely to get, and God, do I want more days for Augustus Waters than what he got. But Gus, my love, I can not tell you how thankful I am, for our little infinity. You gave me a forever, within the numbered days. And for that I am... I am eternally grateful. I love you so much.
Augustus Waters: I love you too.

Hazel Grace Lancaster: I fell in love with him the way you fall asleep: Slowly, and then all at once.

Augustus Waters: I am in love with you. And I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed. And that one day all our labor will be returned to dust. And I know that the sun will swallow the only earth we will ever have. And I am in love with you.

Augustus Waters: Your hands are so cold.
Hazel Grace Lancaster: Oh, they're not so much cold as just under oxygenated.
Augustus Waters: Hazel Grace?
Hazel Grace Lancaster: Hm?
Augustus Waters: I love it when you talk medical to me.

Augustus Waters: That's a thing about pain. It demands to be felt.

Hazel Grace Lancaster: Is it really 1 A.M.?
Augustus Waters: Is it? Yeah, yes, it is.
Augustus Waters: [laugh] I should probably go to sleep.
Augustus Waters: [Exhale] Okay.
Hazel Grace Lancaster: Okay.
Augustus Waters: Okay.
Hazel Grace Lancaster: Okay.
Augustus Waters: Perhaps, 'okay' will be our 'always.'
Hazel Grace Lancaster: Okay.

Augustus Waters: I've been trying to tell you, I'm kind of awesome.

Hazel Grace Lancaster: Funerals, I've decided, are not for the dead. They are for the living.

Hazel Grace Lancaster: Yeah, sometimes people don't understand the promises that they're making when they make them.





I believe, when I see something
It can grow, 'cause I see it in your eyes
Dip it off, still she told me
'Cause I know it's written in the stars

I can see, even from a distance
It makes sense; want you to be mine
This will end, come, come closer
Let it go, let it through the wind


Close to you, I want for it
But it won't last-the future to belong to us
Start it out, there's nothing
Soon to be the movement of our stars

Start it out, there's nothing
Soon to be the movement of our stars

I'm in love with you
Shout it to the void
I know you'll hear me soon
And it will hear me more


Close to you, I want for it
But it won't last-the future to belong to us
Start it out, there's nothing
Soon to be the movement of our stars
Start it out, there's nothing
Soon to be the movement of our stars

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