RADAR LOVE SUMMARY - 2012.1

25^th April 2012 – Jake – You think I’m strong? Well, though I seem to be tough, I’m afraid of one thing. It’s realizing that I’ve lost the person whom I gather strength from. So don’t ever go. I’m not that strong.

28^th April 2012 – Jake – I never knew you until I did. And when I finally did, you were like someone I’ve known for a very long time. I then remembered, you are the one my heart has been talking about.

If I count how many times you’ve crossed my mind in my entire life, I’d be lying if I say it was too many. Cause you only crossed my mind once. Why? Cause you never left it! 

  

27^th April 2012 – Jake - R u ok to do unconditional love day on & from Monday, as discussed?

28^th April 2012 – Neytiri – Sorry. I don't rush to put the phone on the charger anymore. So what does it involve? What do i need to do?

28^th April 2012 – Jake - I hav emailed u instructions. The Force is too strong!..Ish'llah

28^th April 2012 – Neytiri – First i need to pray then i'll read it and let you know.

28^th April 2012 – Jake – Eat 1st, then Pray, then Love, then Believe! Then catch a sh1t!

28^th April 2012 – Neytiri – I love you.

28^th April 2012 – Jake – Ditto!

29^th April 2012 – Neytiri – Already snapped at the kids this morning. Its gonna be tough for me but lets go for it. Love you..

29^th April 2012 – Jake – We gotta start somewhere if we r 2 manifest our destiny! I'm so happy. I am with u so be strong & have faith in our love.

30^th April 2012 – Jake – Remember: 2day is ULD! May the Force b with u..Ish'llah

30^th April 2012 – Neytiri – I remember. Have done the ul meditation you sent.

30^th April 2012 – Jake – Good onya! I can feel the LOVE oozzing!

2^nd May 2012 – Jake – You are the reason why even at the saddest part of my life, I smile. Even at confusion, I understand. Even in betrayal, I trust. Even in fear of pain, I love. 

2^nd May 2012 – Neytiri – What are you doing now. I need to talk

3^rd May 2012 – Jake – Would you believe me if I tell you that I love you so much? Actually, I’d prefer it if you won’t. Why? So that I can spend the rest of my life proving to you how much I do..Ish’llah

4^th May 2012 – Jake – I have searched in places, I’ve waited for years, I’ve taken all the chances, I’ve cried so many tears, I’ve seen so many faces, I’ve hid a lot of fears until my heart stopped searching cause you’re already here..Ish’llah

4^th May 2012 – Jake – May the Fourth be with you! – (Star Wars Day)

4^th May 2012 – Neytiri – Fell asleep meditating today. Think you're right. The whole day will be a star wars day.

6^th May 2012 – Jake – You'll Never Walk Alone!

6^th May 2012 – Neytiri – Why are you awake?

 6^th May 2012 – Jake – I'd like 2 say coz of u but it's the FA Cup Final. The Pool down a goal.

 6^th May 2012 – Neytiri – Yeh shame you're a Pool fan.

6^th May 2012 – Jake – Where's the love? What's for dinner?

7^th May 2012 – Neytiri – Getting ready to do the ul meditation. What did you have for lunch

7^th May 2012 – Jake – I had Greek yoghurt & nuts. Had a bad start to uld. Lost it for the 1st time in months! Felt better after doing ul meditation.

7^th May 2012 – Neytiri – You can't go losing it. You're my guru. What happened?

7^th May 2012 – Jake – I regressed! Don't go putting me on a pedestal now. I'm human too.

7^th May 2012 – Neytiri – Its gonna be tough for me too. Its a holiday everyone's home. Love you too much.

7^th May 2012 – Jake – It's all a test, so embrace it with open arms. It's tough though!

9^th May 2012 – Jake –  If you find yourself in a dark room, walls around you are red and blood comes from everywhere, don’t be scared. You’re inside my heart.

9th May 2012 – Jake – I could do with a kiss from a rose..Ish'llah!

9^th May 2012 – Neytiri – I don't feel like a rose.

9th May 2012 – Jake – I know; I see you. I had another rough nite. U will always be my English rose even if u r wilted..Ish'llah

9th May 2012 – Jake – When you feel confused or burdened by problems focus on THIS INSTANT and ask yourself: WHAT PROBLEM DO I HAVE RIGHT NOW? You will find that there is no problem NOW. A challenge that requires action, possibly, but not a problem...Magic!

10th May 2012 – Jake – I’m holding on to the thought that you’re not mine. I’m going to look you in the eye, smile and say, “You’re not mine.” Then I’ll walk away, turn around at the last moment and say, “But I wish you were.”..Ish’llah

11th May 2012 – Jake – Remember: It's about Keeping Your Side of the Street Clean. Just Do It..Ish'llah!

11^th May 2012 – Neytiri – I'll do it this weekend. I got this yesterday, its an extract from the Gita simplified.

From the Mahabharat said by Lord Krishna to Arjun.

Whatever happened, happened for the good;

Whatever is happening is happening for the good;

whatever will happen,

will also happen for the good only.

Don't put this on the blog, it came from Bhakti bulawayo.

11th May 2012 – Jake – If ever I was given the chance to start my life all over again, I would rather not accept it. Why not? Who knows? In that second start, I may not have known you at all.

12^th May 2012 – Jake – 2day, so far, has been a simply beautiful & spiritual day; full of miracles. Supposed to be Fall but feels like Spring. The Force is 2 strong! Thx..Ish'llah

12^th May 2012 – Neytiri – Its that e-mail you sent, of me and my gym mates. I haven't stopped smiling since last night.

12^th May 2012 – Jake – Good onya! I'm tempted to continue tauntin u 'til u learn to love yourself just the way u r - a BFB!

14^th May 2012 – Jake – For twas not into my ear you whispered

But into my heart

Twas not my lips you kissed

But my soul

15^th May 2012 – Jake – What I need to live has been given to me by the earth.  Why I need to live has been given to me by you...Ish’llah

16^th May 2012 – Jake – We are not the same persons this year as last; nor are those we love.  It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.

17^th May 2012 – Jake – I've fallen in love many times….. always with you.

18^th May 2012 – Jake – Love makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place.

20^th May 2012 – Jake – Trip over love, you can get up.  Fall in love and you fall forever.

21^st May 2012 – Jake – Some double choc MT humor just 4 u.

Love is...counting each other’s rolls of fat!

22^nd May 2012 – Jake – Love is...letting her have the last quart of tartar sauce!

23^rd May 2012 – Jake – Love is...resisting the urge to chew and swallow when tongue-kissing!

23^rd May 2012 – Neytiri – I miss you already. Wondering what you’re doing, thinking.

23^rd May 2012 – Jake – No need to wonder. U r always with me…Ish;’llah

24^thMay 2012 – Jake – Love is...driving the all-you-can-eat restaurant out of business...together!

26^thMay 2012 – Jake – A year ago u were admiring the Monaco track & hunks! Now u r just admiring the hunk of a double choc MT!

27^thMay 2012 – Jake – My love as deep; the more I give to thee,
The more I have, both are infinite.

29^th May 2012 – Jake – Nobody has ever measured, even poets, how much a heart can hold.

29^th May 2012 – Neytiri – Gonna be a little late to Skype you. I’ve got the girls at home today.

29^th May 2012 – Neytiri – I’m home now.

30^th May 2012 – Jake – Love is a symbol of eternity.  It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end...Ish’llah

31^st May 2012 – Jake – A hundred hearts would be too few to carry all my love for you..Ish’llah

31^st May 2012 – Neytiri – Gonna drop B at school around 1.00. I’ll text you when I’m back.

31^st May 2012 – Jake – Ok. So does that mean ½ hr later than usual?

31^st May 2012 – Neytiri – Are you trying to be funny? Yes half an hour later than usual.

31^st May 2012 – Neytiri – Give me another 15

31^st May 2012 – Neytiri – Try me now

1^st June 2012 – Jake – How people treat u is their karma; how u react is yours..Ish’llah

3^rd June 2012 – Jake – The most beautiful view is the one I share with you...Ish’lllah

4^th June 2012 – Jake – You have to walk carefully in the beginning of love; the running across fields into your lover's arms can only come later when you're sure they won't laugh if you trip..Ish’llah

5^th June 2012 – Jake – The hours I spend with you I look upon as sort of a perfumed garden, a dim twilight, and a fountain singing to it.  You and you alone make me feel that I am alive.  Other men it is said have seen angels, but I have seen thee and thou art enough..Ish’llah

6^th June 2012 – Jake – The truth is sometimes I miss you so much I can hardly stand it! I wish I knew how to quit you but ecstatic I don’t..Ish’llah

7^th June 2012 – Neytiri – English weather is living up to its reputation.

7^th June 2012 – Neytiri – I know there are some things I have to accept as is. I can accept the weather but this woman is driving me nuts.

7^th June 2012 – Neytiri – Reading Tolle.

Any disturbing noise can be helpful as silence. How? By dropping your inner resistance to the noise, by allowing it to be as it is, this acceptance also takes you into that realm of inner peace that is stillness.

7^th June 2012 – Jake – She’s getting 2 me as well. I’m having a prick of a time. I’m all out of luv; I’m so lost without you!

8^th June 2012 – Jake – Love makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place.

9^th June 2012 – Jake – If love is blind, why is lingerie so popular?

10^th June 2012 – Jake – Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down.

11^th June 2012 – Jake – Grow old with me!  The best is yet to be.

12^th June 2012 – Jake – Love does not consist of gazing at each other, but in looking together in the same direction..Ish’llah

13^th June 2012 – Jake – R u back?

13^th June 2012 – Neytiri – Yes give me 15.

13^th June 2012 – Neytiri – Are we on Skype today?

13^th June 2012 – Jake – Yes, give me 15.

13^th June 2012 – Jake – Walking under the rain feels so lonely and cold. But if you were there beside me to share the warmth of your love then I would want to stay under the rain for the rest of my life. 

14^th June 2012 – Jake – If kisses were stars, I’d give you the sky. If touches were tears, I would cry. If love was water, I’d give you the sea. And be with you for all eternity.

14^th June 2012 – Neytiri – Lets Skype at 1 my time. Dropping B off late today.

15^th June 2012 – Jake – Sometimes, it’s hard to find words to tell you how much you mean to me. A lot of times, I don’t say anything at all. But I hope someday, you’ll understand, having you is what I live for..Ish’llah

16^th June 2012 – Jake – Sometimes we make love with our eyes.  Sometimes we make love with our hands.  Sometimes we make love with our bodies.  Always we make love with our hearts..Ish’llah

17^th June 2012 – Jake – You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh, but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry..Ish’llah

18^th June 2012 – Jake – You know when you have found your soul mate because you not only have a smile on your face but in your heart as well..Ish’llah

19^th June 2012 – Jake – I have smiled to many people for more than a billion times but when I first saw you, my heart took over and smiled for the first time.

19^th June 2012 – Neytiri – Give me an extra half hour. So 1 my time.

20^th June 2012 – Jake – How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard..Ish’llah

21^st June 2012 – Jake – It’s a sweet thing for a guy to say, “I love you” even though he doesn’t mean it. However, the sweetest thing he can say is, “I don’t love you” when he is crying inside!

22^nd June 2012 – Jake – If I were deaf, I’ll hear your laughter through your smile. If I were mute, I’ll speak to you through your eyes. If I were blind, I’ll see you through your touch. I can live without my senses but life won’t make sense without you. 

23^rd June 2012 – Jake – A bell is no bell 'til you ring it, A song is no song 'til you sing it,

And love in your heart wasn’t put there to stay –

Love isn’t love 'Til you give it away.

24^th June 2012 – Jake – We're all a little weird.  And life is a little weird.  And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness - and call it love - true love.

25^th June 2012 – Jake – I’d rather be blind than not see you. I’d rather be deaf than not hear from you. I’d rather lose my voice than not say this to you, that I’d rather lose my heart than not love you.

25^th June 2012 – Neytiri – P has to go to the orthodontist tomorrow at 12. Will you wait till i get back and text you or do you want to Skype thursday.

25^th June 2012 – Neytiri – I see you.

25^th June 2012 – Jake – ICU2! When do u expect 2 b back?

25^th June 2012 – Neytiri – I don’t know. Sometimes there’s a wait. I could text you if it gets late.

25^th June 2012 – Jake – Roughly what time would u normally take, so I can plan?

25^th June 2012 – Neytiri – About 1.30

25^th June 2012 – Jake – Ok. Text me b4 I die or when u get home or if u r late..ish’llah

26^th June 2012 – Jake – It’s not true that the perception of an angel is someone who wears white dress and with wings. Instead, they look exactly like us. If you don’t want to believe me, look in front of a mirror and there, you’ll see my angel.

26^th June 2012 – Neytiri – I’m on  if you’re free.

27^th June 2012 – Jake – If ever I was given the chance to start my life all over again, I would rather not accept it. Why not? Who knows? In that second start, I may not have known you at all.

28^th June 2012 – Jake – I want to be with you forever so that I can love you in a way that no one else can and care for you in a manner that only I would. But they broke my heart when they said forever isn’t true. Can we prove them wrong by working on forever, just me and you?

28^th June 2012 – Neytiri – Give me 12 I just came in.

29^th June 2012 – Jake – Love - a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker.

30^th June 2012 – Jake – Falling in love is so hard on the knees

12^th July 2012 – Neytiri – I may only be able to Skype for half an hour to an hour today. Is that ok for you or do you just want to see me Tuesday?

12^th July 2012 – Jake – Every second counts, half to 1 hour is good. Let me know when.

12^th July 2012 – Neytiri – Probably same time. Will text you if anything changes.

13^th July 2012 – Jake – Remember to bring your copy of the Big Book..Isjh’llah

13^th July 2012 – Neytiri – Its already with my stuff. It just needs to be packed.

15^th July 2012 – Neytiri – How are you felling.

15^th July 2012 – Jake – I feel so grateful. The Force is too strong. My soul is counting the hours! How about u?

15^th July 2012 – Neytiri – To be honest i was anxious. I just needed to know that this is what you still want.

15^th July 2012 – Jake – ICU! More that life itself! Search your heart & soul & when u see me there you’ll know. Let go & Let God..Ish’llah

23^rd July 2012 – Jake – The Force is strong

23^rd July 2012 – Jake – I’m back.

25^th July 2012 – Jake – I miss you so much already!

25^th July 2012 – Neytiri – I miss you too. Do you want some salad when you get back?

25^th July 2012 – Jake – Ok.Should be back in (what will feel like a long) 30 mins

8^th August 2012 – Jake Don’t thank. You don’t thank for this! This is sad. Very sad only.

8^th August 2012 – Neytiri – Are you alright?

8^th August 2012 – Jake – Not really. What about you?

8^th August 2012 – Neytiri – Conflicted but then whats new. Do you want to Skype?

8^th August 2012 – Jake – Skype would be good. Let me know when. The Force has been too strong to ignore..Ish’llah

8^th August 2012 – Neytiri – The laptop has packed in. I’m going now to see if I can get it fixed, think its just the adaptor will let you know when

8^th August 2012 – Neytiri – I’m on now so whenever you’re free.

12^th August 2012 – Jake – I'm happiest when I'm being myself, and I'm myself when I'm with you..Ish’llah

23^rd August 2012 – Neytiri – Kids are home so can we make it at 1 tomorrow?

23^rd August 2012 – Jake – 1 is good. How r u? Can’t wait til tomorrow.

23^rd August 2012 – Neytiri – Me too, can’t wait. I’ve missed you.

24^th August 2012 – Neytiri – Give me 10 more.

25^th August 2012 – Neytiri – I feel exactly like i did last year, sitting in the tesco  car park. I want to Skype you next week.

25^th August 2012 – Jake – I know. I SEE YOU. I AM because you are. Chillax. Let me know when u want to call.

29^th August 2012 – Neytiri – I ‘m just getting frustrated. I can’t even get to Skype you. It may have to be next week. I miss you so so much.

29^th August 2012 – Jake – Ditto! No wukaz! Chocolate sauce works for me.

4^th September 2012 – Neytiri – Are you good to Skype Thursday?

4^th September 2012 – Jake – U really are testing my patience; tearing me up! What time?

4^th September 2012 – Neytiri – So sorry. Its just Tsu’tey was home until now on sick, he had the flu. Anyway kids start school tomorrow so it’ll be just you and me Thursday. Please please forgive me.

4^th September 2012 – Neytiri – 12.30 will be good.

4^th September – Jake – God forgives; I don’t (just kidding). U should know you don’t need to be forgiven; it’s a given between soulmates. Just don’t abuse the privilege; keep me in the loop. It’s not easy staying PRESENT in the dark!..Ish’llah

11^th September – Jake – My Red String broke! When is Mrs Sully coming to tie another one?

13^th September 2012 – Neytiri – Yeh mine fell off too a couple of weeks back. Tuesday was rough but then i was expecting it to be.

13^th September – Jake – Do u want to Skype?

13^th September 2012 – Neytiri – No i can do this.

13^th September – Jake – You r obviously stronger than me! The Force is too much for me..Ish’llah

13^th September 2012 – Neytiri – Do you want to Skype me?

13^th September – Jake – Only if u r unmasked?

13^th September 2012 – Neytiri – Oh Yeh i think you’re gonna see it all. I’m irritable today.

13^th September – Jake – Give me 10.

13^th September – Jake – Why am I waiting?

13^th September 2012 – Neytiri – Have some patience.

21^st September 2012 – Neytiri – Not hearing from you is just killing me.

21^st September 2012 – Jake – Sorry, me thinks u wanna forget us. R u ok to Skype now?

21^st September 2012 – Neytiri – No I’m at the gym. Just finished a spin class. Now waiting to do a yoga class at 1.30. Not having a good day but that is not why I’m thinking of you. Just miss you a lot. This is gonna be tougher that I thought. Gonna need a way bigger boat maybe a ship.

25^th September 2012 – Neytiri – Skype me before I start eating a whole lot of crap.

25^th September 2012 – Jake – Mask on/off? Give me 10.

25^th September 2012 – Neytiri – Whatever, just Skype me.

1^st October 2012 – Neytiri – Give me till 1 and wait for me if I’m late.

1^st October 2012 – Neytiri – Are you gonna Skype me today?

1^st October 2012 – Jake – I didn’t get txt on time. I waited patiently till 10:30 then retired. Thought u forgot. Apologies for doubting your resolve. R u ok to Skype today? Better late than never.

1^st October 2012 – Neytiri – Yes 12.30. Text you if anything changes. I have P at home not feeling so good.

3^rd October 2012 – Neytiri – Kids have an apt tomorrow at 10.40. I could be late getting back maybe around 1. Will it still be good for you?

3^rd October 2012 – Jake – Hell Yeah! Txt me when u r headin home.

4^th October 2012 – Neytiri – Give me 10

5^th October 2012 – Jake – Read: In This Moment: January 5..Ish’llah

17^th October 2012 – Neytiri – I know its late, I don’t even know what to say. Maybe just goodnight.

18^th October 2012 – Jake – Felipe the Balloonman could do with an English McMuffin! R U ok to Skype today?

18^th October 2012 – Neytiri – Is that a trick question. 12.30 good for you?.

18^th October 2012 – Jake – Hell yeah!

19^th October 2012 – Neytiri – Are you free to Skype me now. I know we weren’t meant to but just feel like it.

20^th October 2012 – Jake – Sorry, had an early nite. I don’t belong in your world nor on your chosen path. Have no doubt our paths will X again. May u be blessed with eternal JPL…Ish’llah

11^th November 2012 – Neytiri – Did you Skype me yesterday?

12^th November 2012 – Jake – Tomorrow is World Kindness Day & Festival of Lights! R u ok to Skype whilst this auspicious window is open?...Maktub!

12^th November 2012 – Neytiri – Yes. Ok to Skype.

12^th November 2012 – Jake – What time?

12^th November 2012 – Neytiri – 12.30. You probably know its 10 hours difference.

13^th November 2012 – Neytiri – Give me 5.

19^th November 2012 – Neytiri – I’m out between 11 and 1.30. But I’m free before and after. Maybe we could do a short Skype today when it suits you or I could wait till tomorrow.

19^th November 2012 – Jake – Give me 5.

20^th November 2012 – Neytiri – Can you Skype even if it’s a quick one after the gym. Really have to go today.

20^th November 2012 – Jake – Ok. Txt me when u get home.

20^th November 2012 – Neytiri – I’m good to Skype now.

21^st November 2012 – Jake – What’s the latest?

21^st November 2012 – Neytiri – Its booked. Tsu’tey did it.

21^st November 2012 – Jake – Maktub!

27^thNovember 2012 – Jake – Are we on todayt?

27^thNovember 2012 – Neytiri – 12.30 good for you?

27^thNovember 2012 – Jake – Ok

29^thNovember 2012 – Neytiri – Go on now

6^th December 2012 – Neytiri – Got home early. On Skype now if you are free

12^th December 2012 – Neytiri – Can you Skype now

12^th December 2012 – Jake – Ok

19^th December 2012 – Jake – I care how I feel & I’m willing to make efforts to improve the way I feel!

26^th December 2012 – Neytiri – Can you Skype now or did you want an early night.

26^th December 2012 – Jake – Ok to Skype. Had an early one last nite.

29^th December 2012 – Jake – M wants to Skype u. What suits u; your Sunday or Monday morning, for a quickie and 20 questions.

30^th December 2012 – Neytiri – Didn’t charge the phone. It will have to be tomorrow.

31^st December 2012 – Neytiri – Do you want to Skype now